Buddhism confuses me. From what I've read it’s supposed to be about compassion and kindness and alla that but then the mediation is all about yourself. And you're supposed to not think about anything. like you're supposed to be blank. Just focusing on the breath, don't let the mind wander. So even if I do accomplish that, when I'm done my mind goes right back to being all nutty. I've been reading and mediating and doing yoga now for months and I still feel as anxiety ridden as I ever did. My blood pressure has not gone down either. The thing is, I have not done anything significant to change my life. I've just added all this breathing and stretching which is nice but it hasn't helped me cope with the fact that I am living in a white supremacist capitalist patriarchy that wants nothing more than to see me fail. And doing yoga and breathing does nothing to change this system of oppression and domination. And it hasn't really changed me. So WTF?