Finished the other sock for Mike Rowe and some baby socks for my friend. Now I can move on to more socks for my cousins, finishing my blue scarf and start on some felted clogs I been wanting to make. I also got some more yarn (as a thank you from Kitkat on the KH boards) from Patternworks today. Manos mmmmmmmm



I need to do something to keep my mind off all this drama at school. I got shafted out of a job. THe good old boy network strikes again. I have requested a formal inquiry so we'll see what happens. I have schoolwork to do, a kid to raise and now I have to find anoter job. IT's not like I have time for them anyhow. There's a new Jonnes opening up close by, maybe I'll apply there. Hell maybe I'll just drop out of grad school and work there full time, build up a reputation as the world's best knitting teacher and open my own shop. AAAAAHhh yes what a nice dream.

 
SSSSooooo tired this morning. Had horrible dreams about snakes eating each other. I love snakes but in the middle of the night I woke up terrified of them. We have a pet corn snale we got for our son. The snake hasn't been in my mind lately so I don't know why I'm dreaming about it. I guess it must be a metaphor for something. Something is eating me. Stress I suppose. Either that or I need to get laid.

 
Buddhism confuses me. From what I've read it’s supposed to be about compassion and kindness and alla that but then the mediation is all about yourself. And you're supposed to not think about anything. like you're supposed to be blank. Just focusing on the breath, don't let the mind wander. So even if I do accomplish that, when I'm done my mind goes right back to being all nutty. I've been reading and mediating and doing yoga now for months and I still feel as anxiety ridden as I ever did. My blood pressure has not gone down either. The thing is, I have not done anything significant to change my life. I've just added all this breathing and stretching which is nice but it hasn't helped me cope with the fact that I am living in a white supremacist capitalist patriarchy that wants nothing more than to see me fail. And doing yoga and breathing does nothing to change this system of oppression and domination. And it hasn't really changed me. So WTF?

 
So I've noticed a lot of knitters discussing color lately as "girl" colors and "boy" colors. Or saying things like "boys can't wear purple" or "Oh you're having a baby? Is it a boy or a girl so I know what color xyz to make for them." I'm sooooooo tired of this!!! This is how sexism is perpetuated. Its so unconscious though, folks don't even know they are doing it. That's why its my job to step in and enlighten them. Now here's the tricky part. Folks don't want to be enlightened. They enjoy living in their predictable sexist boxes. SO the way I see it, for me to spread the word of feminism is like christian evangelists who spread their word. Hopefully there are some out there who want to hear it. Maybe I should make pamphlets and go door to door.

 

So here's some recent projets I'm working on:

Big man sock for Mike Rowe and little babay sock for friends baby dues in May.

I'm still working on my scarf for me. Its almost as long as my couch! I want to be as long as my heght (6 ft 1 inch) so I have a ways to go.

 
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